Feeling especially depressed during this time, I remember waking up in the morning with a sense of dread, wishing I could stay asleep instead of face reality.
I'd felt so certain when we'd left for Costa Rica -- designing your dream life was possible!
Now, after facing major defeat, I wasn't sure. In fact, I believed it was impossible. It went against 'reality' -- a life that sucked and then you died.
And that's what we needed to do -- 'suck it up' like the rest of the world, get a real job, and work toward retirement. That's what we're all supposed to do. Deal with it.
Luckily, I kept reading books, or who knows, I might still be stuck in suburbia with my limited, small-minded thinking!
One book in particular got to me. The author taught that living your dream WAS possible! Achieving the success you dream requires obeying certain principles. All you have to do is follow them, and success is certain! It was balm to my wounded soul.